(Family Generational Curses & Sins)
Suzanne Somers wrote a powerful book about her family's secret of alcoholism. Reading her story, I was moved by her courage to lay herself open to criticism. How could she reveal such personal stuff about herself and her family?
How evil and Satan love to cower, hidden in the darkness. I concur with Suzanne's courage. Christ came not to bring peace but to divide and He talks about that division when one enters into the covenant of grace and salvation. Christ has entered my soul and life with His peace and healing. I am a NEW creation in Christ!
Presently, I mourn about the deadly poison inflicting my own family for over thirty years. My mother and sister have preferred to hide in the darkness and cower for fear of Christ illuminating their darkness. Many nights, I've tossed and turned in bed, grieving for what the enemy has robbed from me, a family that loves and communicates honestly.
To them, honesty means criticizing, back-biting and gossiping behind each others back with a cruelty and unforgiving vengeance that has greatly damaged each other and me...And they still embrace evil and sin. I weep in sadness, still praying every night for my mother and younger sister for 27 years, (since committed my life to Jesus Christ in 1983.) Change has yet to come.
But...God is more than able to heal and bring this family to a cleansing, redeeming state. They do not hear, preferring to ignore my phone calls or emails.
Abuse/neglect, drugs and alcohol all have the same results: alienation, bitterness, unforgiveness and self pity. Once an offense has not been forgiven, a door opens into the Satanic realm. Forgiveness has destroyed many friendships, families, marriages and lives. Jesus said, "If you do not forgive you will not be forgiven." Forgiveness is not a perquisite. It is a command.
My family situation has escalated into hideous, spiritual proportions. When a mother can tell a daughter that she will "sh...t" on her youngest daughters grave" and forbids three of her four daughters from attending her own (future) funeral...a line has to be drawn and evil must be confronted. When a sister tells her oldest sister who is being violently abused by a demon-possessed husband, "You deserve it for all your dalliances with these young guys" a line has to be drawn.
Having gone through so many evil and tempestuous storms and abuses, I'm no longer afraid to confront, because Christ has called me to stand against the principalities of darkness. Satan is a defeated foe, but still seeks to destroy the marriage and family unit. I will not cower before him, nor my mother or sister. I honor my mother and father as the Bible commands, but I cannot stand to watch them be used as Satan's pawn to damage other members of the family.
My journey to healing has been a long one. I've faced my demons of fear and compliance and taken responsibility for the privilege of choice. I'm no longer a slave to an abuser and know how how to wield my sword of courage and erect the appropriate boundaries. I've also learned about the healing balm of forgiveness...to "not let the sun down on my wrath." God allows us to be "righteously" angry until we go to sleep, but we must never carry that grudge into the next morning or we will open a door to Satan's domain.
Fight fire with fire??? Truly, the bonfire will rage. We must douse the flames with love and forgiveness and take responsibility for our part. With Christ all things are possible.
Anita Ivette Ferrer
Asbury Park Angel
Thursday, February 18, 2010
Friday, February 5, 2010
SOLDIER of the MOST HIGH GOD
Welcome to my BLOGSPOT, Basement Chronicles! I’m a 26 year veteran/soldier of God’s mighty army and I obediently write and speak about what God has placed on my heart. Being still and knowing God has enabled mer to navigate the perilous mine fields of life. Walking and resting in the shadow of the Almighty gives me the endurance to run her race: and one day receive the crown of life when I meet my master and Savior face to face..
In many way, my life has mirrored Joseph’s, (Patriarch of the Old testament) where unjust and devastating circumstances could have deterred me from my calling and God’s love. My heroes, Old testament prophets, Ezekiel and Jeremiah as well as Joseph and Job, have encouraged me to not shirk God’s intense refining. Confirmations prophesied to me throughout my long faith walk, gave me comfort and reassurance that I was on the right track as long as I stayed close to my Savior.
The trials have been excruciating, to say the least, but God’s precious glimpses into His grace and glory as well as the hurting people along the way have far outweighed the difficult setbacks. Taxing illnesses and painful emotional healing from child abuse, anorexia/bulemia, inferiority complex, a violent marriage and divorce and life-threatening, chronic illnesses as lessons from the past. Today, I’m a transformed product of one completely surrendered to Christ!
My latest studio project, MOD PROPHET, isn’t light-hearted fare. I address painful, relevant issues, losses and injustices that I experienced firsthand and helped others to overcome.
Mod Prophet tackles the human struggle with sin, “I Keep Falling,” “Surrender,” a plea of a spouse unwilling to divorce, “Testosterone, Logic & Intuition” addresses the Battle of the sexes and “Policing the Other” exposes hypocrisy and legalism in the church. I do balance these weighty subjects with anthemic songs of courage and spiritual endurance, “Coup De’Etat” (God’s command of courage to Joshua) and even a few artsy love ballads!
I have never been one to confine myself into a box and have embraced my multi-dimensional art, inspiring with excellence, truth, beauty and the heart of God. I refuse to compromise my unconventional art for the sake of commercialism, preferring to present God’s perspective however sobering and hard-hitting, like the old-time prophets I so revere. They were not popular, and at times even despised and so I understands the call and submit.
To obey is better than to sacrifice and God is my reward!
In many way, my life has mirrored Joseph’s, (Patriarch of the Old testament) where unjust and devastating circumstances could have deterred me from my calling and God’s love. My heroes, Old testament prophets, Ezekiel and Jeremiah as well as Joseph and Job, have encouraged me to not shirk God’s intense refining. Confirmations prophesied to me throughout my long faith walk, gave me comfort and reassurance that I was on the right track as long as I stayed close to my Savior.
The trials have been excruciating, to say the least, but God’s precious glimpses into His grace and glory as well as the hurting people along the way have far outweighed the difficult setbacks. Taxing illnesses and painful emotional healing from child abuse, anorexia/bulemia, inferiority complex, a violent marriage and divorce and life-threatening, chronic illnesses as lessons from the past. Today, I’m a transformed product of one completely surrendered to Christ!
My latest studio project, MOD PROPHET, isn’t light-hearted fare. I address painful, relevant issues, losses and injustices that I experienced firsthand and helped others to overcome.
Mod Prophet tackles the human struggle with sin, “I Keep Falling,” “Surrender,” a plea of a spouse unwilling to divorce, “Testosterone, Logic & Intuition” addresses the Battle of the sexes and “Policing the Other” exposes hypocrisy and legalism in the church. I do balance these weighty subjects with anthemic songs of courage and spiritual endurance, “Coup De’Etat” (God’s command of courage to Joshua) and even a few artsy love ballads!
I have never been one to confine myself into a box and have embraced my multi-dimensional art, inspiring with excellence, truth, beauty and the heart of God. I refuse to compromise my unconventional art for the sake of commercialism, preferring to present God’s perspective however sobering and hard-hitting, like the old-time prophets I so revere. They were not popular, and at times even despised and so I understands the call and submit.
To obey is better than to sacrifice and God is my reward!
DEPRESSION & SUICIDE, TEEN CHALLENGE
Transitioning into adulthood through the process of adolescence can be one of the most tumultuous and draining times a parent, foster parent or guardian can ever endure.
The main issue is gaining a good understanding of the brain, emotional and chemical processes and once understood, can be properly assessed and guided. It’s a long transformation process into adulthood, (almost driving parents nuts), but with good education, this period can turn out okay!
The brain is a very complex organ, so complex that even scientists and psychologists have a difficult time administering medication to stabilizes symptoms and behavior patterns.
This amazing organ houses and navigates all the emotions and thinking through the release of nuero-transmitters. Pre teens and teen have ranging hormones that run amok The nuero-transmitters are very unstable as they conglomerate into a smooth transition into a normal reasoning brain..This transaction is so delicate, that even scientists have a difficult time trying to pin down the reason for clinical depression & suicide.
Parents can help. Diet is a huge part of brain/emotional processing. Parents wonder why their kids have all sorts of health and emotional issues, not facing the fact that sugar, refined carbs & fried junk food all interfere with the normal nuero-transmitter releases. Anything can throw amok the whole system, including chemicals.
When I had custody of my nephew, he had terrible ADHD. He was a brilliant kid but so scatterbrained he caused chaos in his classroom. My mentally handicapped sister fed him Captain Crunch cookies & sweets all day & put no boundaries on his activities. He was a mess when I had him. There was a lot of mental abuse also.
Structure and a strict health diet changed him from night and day. I also introduced Andre to guitar to focus his creativity and intelligence. He play lead guitar also! I dosed with encourage, loving words of affirmation, bedtime prayers & structure. Andre is now a honor role college student earning his AA degree in criminal justice! My father and step-mother had disowned him and prophesied that he would end up in prison. Imagine that! I rebuked my whole family and prophesied life and success to my precious nephew. That kid has a tsunami of raging anger about his mother’s abuse. What a change when I got a hold of him. Kids need to know their parents, (or aunts, in my case) are safe to share their deepest feelings.
There is a myriad of websites devoted to nuero-transmitters, depression and diet relating to good emotional health.
The main issue is gaining a good understanding of the brain, emotional and chemical processes and once understood, can be properly assessed and guided. It’s a long transformation process into adulthood, (almost driving parents nuts), but with good education, this period can turn out okay!
The brain is a very complex organ, so complex that even scientists and psychologists have a difficult time administering medication to stabilizes symptoms and behavior patterns.
This amazing organ houses and navigates all the emotions and thinking through the release of nuero-transmitters. Pre teens and teen have ranging hormones that run amok The nuero-transmitters are very unstable as they conglomerate into a smooth transition into a normal reasoning brain..This transaction is so delicate, that even scientists have a difficult time trying to pin down the reason for clinical depression & suicide.
Parents can help. Diet is a huge part of brain/emotional processing. Parents wonder why their kids have all sorts of health and emotional issues, not facing the fact that sugar, refined carbs & fried junk food all interfere with the normal nuero-transmitter releases. Anything can throw amok the whole system, including chemicals.
When I had custody of my nephew, he had terrible ADHD. He was a brilliant kid but so scatterbrained he caused chaos in his classroom. My mentally handicapped sister fed him Captain Crunch cookies & sweets all day & put no boundaries on his activities. He was a mess when I had him. There was a lot of mental abuse also.
Structure and a strict health diet changed him from night and day. I also introduced Andre to guitar to focus his creativity and intelligence. He play lead guitar also! I dosed with encourage, loving words of affirmation, bedtime prayers & structure. Andre is now a honor role college student earning his AA degree in criminal justice! My father and step-mother had disowned him and prophesied that he would end up in prison. Imagine that! I rebuked my whole family and prophesied life and success to my precious nephew. That kid has a tsunami of raging anger about his mother’s abuse. What a change when I got a hold of him. Kids need to know their parents, (or aunts, in my case) are safe to share their deepest feelings.
There is a myriad of websites devoted to nuero-transmitters, depression and diet relating to good emotional health.
Sunday, March 8, 2009
My Battle With Dystonia (Part 2)
I’ve suffered with health issues since a young girl, hay fever and fatigue, but when I got chicken pox at 25, things went really sour and I was susceptible to bronchial infections.The bomb hit in 1992 with a Lyme Disease diagnosis. Treatment protocol was a full month of intravenous IV Rosephin. The Lyme spirochete subsided temporally, but came back with a vengeance several months later. I had to have a full month of Amoxicillin and doctor even neglected to inform me about pro-biotic for my gut health. Candida fungus proliferated .for two years before getting it under control. My lower body weight gain and clinical depression robbed two years of my life.
I managed to forge forward, with my outreach ministry and even recorded my first CD, "Ill Fly High" in 1996. Years later, after incredible hardship, unemployment and poverty, I met and married my soul mate. Both of us had major health issues and we began to get serious about taking control of our health, researching daily online to find the cause of our bizarre and disabling symptoms-/malady that doctors deemed incurable.
I've always been impassioned about good health, fitness and youthfulness. After 26 years of faithfully serving Jesus Christ, both through my music outreach and ministry exploits and pure love for what He has done for me , I discovered the promise of believers being promised divine health and healing! No one was going to tell me I would be living with seizures for the rest of my life...but people are accepting the doctors death diagnoses every day!
I’ve learned that though God allows difficult trials, sickness and hardships for learning, they are only temporary and He makes a way out, a cure or freedom from captivity. I cannot accept mainstream medicine’s doctrines of being tethered to pharmaceuticals for life, especially when they all have terrible side effects! God has given us the herbs and natural supplements for our healing and the body is so designed to heal itself.
I managed to forge forward, with my outreach ministry and even recorded my first CD, "Ill Fly High" in 1996. Years later, after incredible hardship, unemployment and poverty, I met and married my soul mate. Both of us had major health issues and we began to get serious about taking control of our health, researching daily online to find the cause of our bizarre and disabling symptoms-/malady that doctors deemed incurable.
I've always been impassioned about good health, fitness and youthfulness. After 26 years of faithfully serving Jesus Christ, both through my music outreach and ministry exploits and pure love for what He has done for me , I discovered the promise of believers being promised divine health and healing! No one was going to tell me I would be living with seizures for the rest of my life...but people are accepting the doctors death diagnoses every day!
I’ve learned that though God allows difficult trials, sickness and hardships for learning, they are only temporary and He makes a way out, a cure or freedom from captivity. I cannot accept mainstream medicine’s doctrines of being tethered to pharmaceuticals for life, especially when they all have terrible side effects! God has given us the herbs and natural supplements for our healing and the body is so designed to heal itself.
MY BATTLE AGAINST DYSTONIA
MY BATTLE AGAINST DYSTONIA
The convulsing never stops. The misery continues each waking moment, but I know there must be thousands all over the world baffled by their constant, uncontrollable bodily movements. Doctors are baffled, prescribe muscle relaxants to no avail.
People stare and our friends and family don’t understand this endless trial. For people of faith, this is a trying test as we cry out to God daily for relief. I can’t asleep and I pray that I’ll not wake up.
It started around March of 2006 and a month later, Dr Buck said I had Dystonia. I’m a professional performing musician, guitar player, artist and writer. My work and calling all entail speaking, singing and working with my hands.
Jerking my mouth open while hitting a high E note one day while driving was the beginning of my agonizing trial. Crack. I thought little of it at first, but a few weeks later, an unfamiliar, contraction moved my throat by the month’s end getting so bad my tempero-mandibular jaw joints became an inflamed lump on my right side. By mid afternoon, my jaw and lower face were exhausted by the constant movement. Pain and anxiety were my new companions. People would stare as my face contorted unattractively and uncontrollably.
This battle with Dystonia has been the most compelling and daunting of my life and has diminished the quality of my life more than anything I could have ever imagined.
The convulsing never stops. The misery continues each waking moment, but I know there must be thousands all over the world baffled by their constant, uncontrollable bodily movements. Doctors are baffled, prescribe muscle relaxants to no avail.
People stare and our friends and family don’t understand this endless trial. For people of faith, this is a trying test as we cry out to God daily for relief. I can’t asleep and I pray that I’ll not wake up.
It started around March of 2006 and a month later, Dr Buck said I had Dystonia. I’m a professional performing musician, guitar player, artist and writer. My work and calling all entail speaking, singing and working with my hands.
Jerking my mouth open while hitting a high E note one day while driving was the beginning of my agonizing trial. Crack. I thought little of it at first, but a few weeks later, an unfamiliar, contraction moved my throat by the month’s end getting so bad my tempero-mandibular jaw joints became an inflamed lump on my right side. By mid afternoon, my jaw and lower face were exhausted by the constant movement. Pain and anxiety were my new companions. People would stare as my face contorted unattractively and uncontrollably.
This battle with Dystonia has been the most compelling and daunting of my life and has diminished the quality of my life more than anything I could have ever imagined.
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